Returning to Blog
Well, after a long vacation, i kind of felt the knack to write again. i think it will do wonders for me. Right now, i have no way to vent and express my feelings, so what better way to do it than to blog?
i'm single. i've been single since February. It's now August 1st; it's time to move on. i ended my last relationship after 11 months. We had a breakup over a stupid keyboard...if you can believe that. There were some other things going on...but i'm not going to say that here...let's just say it ended pretty badly.
Right now i'm talking with many people, but i'm having trouble getting a date real life. i set up dates with people from websites or people i meet at work, and they always end up standing me up. i think since Feb, i've had maybe three people show up out of i don't even know how many who said they'd be here to pick me up. It sucks majorly, and sometimes i ask myself...why do i even try?
The answer is simple. i seek happiness. i seek love. i seek a companion..one whom i might spend the rest of my life with. Of course i seek someone who would just as quick throw me over a table or knee and just start spanking away ...lol.. but that's beside the point.
There's also the obsticle of breaking thru the brick wall that's very secure over my heart. i'm so tired of getting hurt i'm almost afraid to let someone else in my life because i'm afraid it will only end up worse than the past relationships. Every relationship i've ever had has ended in emotional, mental, and financial abuse. This last one ended in physical abuse. Who's to say that the next one won't try to kill me or hurt me really bad...
*sighs*
Well, in keeping with my tradition... now to find a quote i like..hmmm.. which one will it be...
i'm single. i've been single since February. It's now August 1st; it's time to move on. i ended my last relationship after 11 months. We had a breakup over a stupid keyboard...if you can believe that. There were some other things going on...but i'm not going to say that here...let's just say it ended pretty badly.
Right now i'm talking with many people, but i'm having trouble getting a date real life. i set up dates with people from websites or people i meet at work, and they always end up standing me up. i think since Feb, i've had maybe three people show up out of i don't even know how many who said they'd be here to pick me up. It sucks majorly, and sometimes i ask myself...why do i even try?
The answer is simple. i seek happiness. i seek love. i seek a companion..one whom i might spend the rest of my life with. Of course i seek someone who would just as quick throw me over a table or knee and just start spanking away ...lol.. but that's beside the point.
There's also the obsticle of breaking thru the brick wall that's very secure over my heart. i'm so tired of getting hurt i'm almost afraid to let someone else in my life because i'm afraid it will only end up worse than the past relationships. Every relationship i've ever had has ended in emotional, mental, and financial abuse. This last one ended in physical abuse. Who's to say that the next one won't try to kill me or hurt me really bad...
*sighs*
Well, in keeping with my tradition... now to find a quote i like..hmmm.. which one will it be...
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~~Quote of the Day:~~
"Goreans care for their world.
They love the sky, the plains, the sea, the rain in the summer, the snow in the winter.
They will sometimes stand and watch clouds.
The movement of grass in the wind is very beautiful to them.
More than one Gorean poet has sung of the leaf of a Tur tree.
I have known warriors who cared for the beauty of small flowers. "
~Hunters of Gor, p. 119~
posted by cindy at 6:48 PM
2 Comments:
Good to have you back blogging!
woo thanks, Mistress Dream!!
*hugz*
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